Stars are Purple

coldest story ever told.

2009-08-22T20:21:00.000-07:00

that last post makes me mad. i hate capitalizing things. i have a lot of resentment right now. and im not sure if thats even the right word for how i feel. i just need to write right now. put my thoughts out there. because i dont feel like wasting paper and ink. i always write in sentence fragments. not sure why. i sometimes dont finish my sentences when im actually speaking either.

tonight is the first night ive actually been lonely in a very very long time. even when i was confined to nothingness over summer, i still wasnt lonely - i didnt even want to see anyone. but now, i just want to be surrounded by people. only certain people though. ive always been very independent. but now, i want more than anything to just mingle with the crowd. its a weird change. but i think its a good change. i could go a weekend with just staying at home, but now i feel like i HAVE to be out. i just want to leave the nest. fly with the sparrow. its a metaphor.

maybe me wanting to be surrounded by people, is really me becoming even more independent.

sitting on the dock

2009-07-21T16:58:00.000-07:00

i tend to drift away from things quite easily.
i abandoned this blog,
which is something i never wanted to do.

my world is changed,
and i feel i am no longer the person i once was.
okey that's just me being dramatic

im lost in the ocean
and i need a tug boat to slowly
pull me back to shore.

reach me here:
www.myspace.com/annemariepwns

im not abandoning this babyblog ive created,
any longer ♥

skiddly dooo

2009-06-05T17:27:00.000-07:00

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes There's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too
Because Oh Because
I've fallen quite hard over you
If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone

- Falling in love at a Coffee Shop, Landon Pigg

That's been my expression lately, like "uhhhh.. wow"
Don't mind the idiot on the right <3

i gotz them butterflies like no other sukka. What if I talked gangsta all the time?

2009-06-02T23:06:00.000-07:00

Grin and bare it. That's my moto for the day.

what is this

2009-06-01T13:22:00.000-07:00

In the past 4 days I've gotten less than ten hours of sleep.
This can lead to delirium, agitation, and pure happiness.
Stay awake for multiple days straight with caution.
You'll end up extremely happy like this:
Quite possibly like this:

Boy you two kinds of crazy. (i say that way too often)

Things have gone 180 since my last post. Goodgoodgood. *knock on wood*

* wow the day just went from a level 4 to like level 20!!

2009-05-27T17:48:00.000-07:00

Today I got back from California. The whole time we were there I was dying to come back home. I didn't enjoy and soak in our vacation, because I was anxious to come back to Arizona. I was happy to come home at first, but now I want more than anything to get away. I take my family for granted.
I'm going to my friend's house in a little bit. Her goofy ways can cheer me up.

Home is where the heart is. Hearts get hurt. It's better to stay away from home, where you wear your heart on your sleeve.

a wise man

2009-05-21T19:11:00.000-07:00

"Just wait a while. It'll happen."
- a wise man. :)

If there's one thing I need to learn in life, it's to have patience and some faith in people. I always look for the worst outcome of a situation, when in reality things aren't even that bad. I just need to calm down and wait. wait. wait.
Plus I need to give myself some credit. low self esteem.

I'm working on everything.

school's out. Let the games begin.

that's what you get

2009-05-19T21:03:00.000-07:00

i cant promise you anything
i know yeah i'm slow
i sleep the best in cold
dreams are the place to be
- Saturday by chris Garneau

whywhywhy. I just want the year to be over. Two more days. This is a little view of how the days have been going. (the one above included) Wow. The most relevant song just came on. Eff you Relient K.

who i am hates who I've been

Make it happen. But how? Get over it, and move one.
I want to be frank and tell you this statement above.

Hi, I'm Frank. I wish..

I sound legitimately crazy. I'm not i swear.

ouch

2009-05-16T20:51:00.000-07:00

I know that I've been dancing around the truth
Tell me what the hell I'm suppose to do
I'm a little bit agitated
With a slight scent of denial
- Nevershoutnever.

Exactly.

hmm

2009-05-15T18:54:00.001-07:00

younger
older
close friend
party friend
beautiful
just alright

oh the choices. It makes my heart thump.

it's a bipolar kind of day

2009-05-13T21:12:00.000-07:00

This morning I woke up at 4:30 and almost started getting ready for school. But I forced myself back to sleep and had a dream I was using bleach to brush my teeth. I looked up what the meaning of bleach was in my dream dictionary, and it makes sense.

]In dance we were doing a seance in the auditorium. It really didn't scare me because nothing happened. People had bad energy in the room.

During lunch me and my friend just sat stagnant. But then her boyfriend came over and she got all googly eyed with love and I got depressed. I honestly didn't get jealous, but it was more like I was so happy that she could STILL have those special feelings 8 months into their relationship. It gave me hope for the world. haha

Then at the beginning of math I started crying because I was so overcome with emotion and I feel so lonely (not friend wise). Then I was laughing because I finally admitted to myself that I am lonesome.

I came home had a screaming match with my mom and then went to sleep.
Woke up and went to a party for dance with the ones I love. ♥
We play dress up when we aren't summoning ghosts in dance.

por que?

2009-05-12T21:33:00.001-07:00

My brother just came into my room and sang
"wake up. wake up. the war is over."
[no referance to the actual war going on]

with a big smile on his face. what an odd boy.

With this face is how I get the men

2009-05-10T21:46:00.000-07:00

This is how I feel about school and finals right now: Why do teachers choose the worst weekends to assign projects?

Ok ok I have to go back to writing my cultural research paper on Slovenia.
But wait, I'm getting distracted as I type this very sentence by a show about sex appeal. It's a scientific study. Oooo lala.

I feel like I neglect my blog when blogger home not set at my homepage.

Oh, and and while we're on the topic of sex appeal (i guess), would you ever date someone who's a year younger than you and your friends are telling you not to because he's in a grade lower?
Not that it pertains to me or anything wait what?

I have too many facial expressions.

oops

2009-05-06T17:36:00.000-07:00

I kind of just got hair dye all over a cabinet, and it won't come off.
I'll figure it out once I wash it out of my hair. uhhhht oh.
Dance show is tomorrow. So excited, but kind of nervous, but not really. I should be used to it by now, since I've been doing it for so long.

figure out how to get stains off of cabinets for me.

Find me a gentleman like him

2009-05-05T17:29:00.000-07:00

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

2009-05-03T15:53:00.000-07:00

I hate memories they make my heart hurt, and it's hard to shake them off

This week is going to DRAIN me. The recital for dance is thursday and friday, and I have to spend the whole week getting ready.
Tomorrow I have to go to school at 7 and stay until 9 o'clock at night for dress rehearsal.. why?! School can just go away forever.

Im probably just going to sleep from 3 to 6 in the auditorium then pull myself together to dance from 6 to 9. shizznit.

p.s. it was a good weekend <3

im the baby gotta love me

2009-04-29T18:46:00.002-07:00

why remembers the show Dinosaurs? I was only like 2 years old when this was on, but I vaguely remember it.

I lied

2009-04-28T18:31:00.001-07:00

I don't have a sinus infection. Praise the lord.

diagnostic procedure of a 16 year old

2009-04-27T20:51:00.001-07:00

"My face hurts"

I've been saying that for the past few days and I finally remembered why:
SINUSITIS. It happened last year, and it came back again this year.

My parents get mad because I'm "always sick." However, the doctor last year said that it will keep coming back unless I continure treating it - which I haven't.

TMI:
my eyes are REDREDRED and draining out stuff and this picture explains why:

The naso-lacrimal ducts are connected to the interior turbinate. And they also connect to the lacrimal sac. Therefore the stuff from my nose is coming out of my eyes. That's nasty.

I watch too much House. and I feel like every other word from the above paragraph is spelled wrong. What a genius.

Betty freakin Crocker

2009-04-26T13:50:00.002-07:00

Today I had to bake 36 cupcakes for a class assignment. I never want to eat raw batter again. Hoewever, I think they turned out really really good! If a bakery was hiring for a summer job, I'd take it.

This one's my favorite looking: So I've noticed that I really like wearing green and teals lately. This dress I got from Forever 21 is SO comfortable and fits my small lady parts perfectly.Sometimes I despise shopping because dresses are always so loose over my shoulders, and I don't like wearing undershirts. But this one is just great (its the one im wearing in my header).

Another dress that I'm fond of:Deliciousness (they're also in green packaging by coincidence):

* added like a billion hours later: face chart I just finished.
I feel so proud ;)

im an underaged love rock

2009-04-25T19:36:00.001-07:00

I stuck to my word and went to MAC today. I feel accomplished, because I don't really follow through with things I say I'm going to do. LAME.
I got a Grande Duo blush in Love Rock and a lipglass in Underage

I highly highly highly recommed both of these products.
*but if you have very light skin, you might prefer the Grand Duo in Moonriver (below)

(i love both of the grand duos i have <3)

i dreamt of

2009-04-24T20:16:00.001-07:00

MAC products last night. Not even lying. Particularly
Wait.. would it be "dreamt of" or "dreamed of"?
Especially the Peppermint Patti nail polish that's sold out. *tears*

It's a sign that I need to go get some things I've been eyeballing lately.
I seriously could spend over an hour on the website just drooling.
So, tomorrow I'm going to march my little butt into Dillard's (since there's not an actual MAC store close by), and buy whatever my heart desires. Ok maybe not everything my heart desires, because then I will go broke.

bland.

2009-04-23T22:38:00.001-07:00

like an oatmeal raisin cookie. but oh so delicious.

it makes me smile

2009-04-22T20:46:00.000-07:00

I'M HAPPY KNOWIN' THAT YOU ARE MINE
THE GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE
THE MORE I THINK THE MORE I WISH
THAT WE COULD JUST LIE FOR HOURS AND
JUST REMINISCE, A OO OO.

- Cristopher Drew, Nevershoutnever

best post ever.. maybe. maybe not;

2009-04-21T23:13:00.001-07:00

Let me just say that my throat and head hurts so bad. It's just pulsing like the energizer bunny is beating my face in.
On a happier note, I had to dance in a Broadway choir show today.My friend (on the right) is a hippie and I love her. We're double the trouble when we're together. Actually, we cannot go a day without laughing and appreciating each other's company. I love my dance friends more than any other friends. They understand me better. Oh what the heck, no one understands my ways of thinking. But I'm ok with that because life is like a box of chocolates.

Writing the first sentence of this post made me realize that I complain A LOT. It needs to stop because I don't intentionally mean to do it. Complaining just kind of happens.

Why am I still awake at 11 o'clock on a school night?
- School doesn't start until 11:20 tomorrow.

What kind of schooling system allows high schoolers to go to school for only THREE hours? and then we don't even have school Friday. wow.

Who get's mad about that? me. Why? because my head is pounding and I have Man in the Mirror by Michael Jackson stuck in my head.

Big Edie (from Grey Gardens) has words of wisdom for me:

Edith "Big Edie" Bouvier Beale: Will you shut up? It's a goddamn beautiful day, shut up!