With this face is how I get the men

This is how I feel about school and finals right now: Why do teachers choose the worst weekends to assign projects?

Ok ok I have to go back to writing my cultural research paper on Slovenia.
But wait, I'm getting distracted as I type this very sentence by a show about sex appeal. It's a scientific study. Oooo lala.

I feel like I neglect my blog when blogger home not set at my homepage.

Oh, and and while we're on the topic of sex appeal (i guess), would you ever date someone who's a year younger than you and your friends are telling you not to because he's in a grade lower?
Not that it pertains to me or anything wait what?

I have too many facial expressions.

oops

I kind of just got hair dye all over a cabinet, and it won't come off.
I'll figure it out once I wash it out of my hair. uhhhht oh.
Dance show is tomorrow. So excited, but kind of nervous, but not really. I should be used to it by now, since I've been doing it for so long.

figure out how to get stains off of cabinets for me.

Betty freakin Crocker

Today I had to bake 36 cupcakes for a class assignment. I never want to eat raw batter again. Hoewever, I think they turned out really really good! If a bakery was hiring for a summer job, I'd take it.

This one's my favorite looking: So I've noticed that I really like wearing green and teals lately. This dress I got from Forever 21 is SO comfortable and fits my small lady parts perfectly.Sometimes I despise shopping because dresses are always so loose over my shoulders, and I don't like wearing undershirts. But this one is just great (its the one im wearing in my header).

Another dress that I'm fond of:Deliciousness (they're also in green packaging by coincidence):

* added like a billion hours later: face chart I just finished.
I feel so proud ;)

lazy dressing dramatic face

I haven't felt like getting dressed in days. Yet I do my make up all elaborate. My make up over rides my clothing these days. How can someone be too lazy to get dressed, but have the energy to apply a full face of makeup? Radonculous.
I really want to go to beauty school, but its an unrealistic dream. I'll end up being a pharmacist or radiologist.
I'm going back to being a vegetarian against raven's advice ;). I felt guilty whenever I ate meat, and I ust feel healthier when I dont eat it.
One thing I cannot kick is junk food. It'll never go away. Oh well I'll live with it.

My stomach is concaving itself

During dance I felt like I was going to kneel over and die. I basically did. My hair's becoming a beast, but I love it. (that was during dance)

I need to stop eating junk food. It's getting really bad, and the results will show one day. Motivate me. I used to be a good vegitarian, but I think im going through a growth spurt, so I need to stock up on eating.

Today was crap. Things irritate me. Especially pizzahut. Their online ordering ticks me off.

lobster bisque

my left leg and arm looks like a lobster. i should've put on sunscreen

A Romping Tweaker (you'll see..)

I don't feel like writing. And I have a bad streaky spray tan. that's just how spring break goes. I have to go back to school tomorrow.. nuff said. spectacular romper and sandals from the lovely UO.
I have a huge dance production packet to do, when really all I want to do is this
Oh, and you need to go read Tweak by Nic Sheff. Now.

I have a pidgeon in my hair

I've been sick (i sound like Gary off of spongebob) and run down the past few days - no actually weeks. For the past few weeks i've just been running myself ragged.

So what does one do on the first day of Spring Break, whilst being sick?
tan outside
watch youtube videos all day
eat,eat,eat
see the same sun chips commercial over 25 times but still be mesmerized by it each time
make a faux hawk

oh yes i did. haha dont mind the left side.. falling lope sided.
guurrrl work those uneven eyebrows and missing arm

there was no need for my hand to be on my head, its just a bad habit for pictures. The sides should have been sleeker.
But I didnt want to do it full out today, because i wanted to comb it out after I was done.

It's very simple to do (but kind of irritating if you have bangs and layers like me)

i don't button

Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight.

You have stolen my heart I wore this today. I'm kind of over my previous style. I feel more mature lately. Since when does satin and pearls signify maturity?
[the buttons are done up wrong in this picture. haha how sophisticated]

What I am wearing tomorrow:

You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

lyrics by Dashboard confessional

Buon giorno, Principessa!

February is going to be hectic (and amazing) - it already has been.
On Wednesday I leave for California with my dance group. We're going to Disneyland, taking classes from Debbie Reynold's studio, and seeing Phantom of the Oprah. Oh my god.. did i just spell Oprah?... I'm not even going to correct it.
Then I have a week off, and then I'm going to Cougartown as a counsilor in training. Im so flippin excited - I haven't been able to contain myself for the past few monthes. the mere thought of it makes me so freakin hfdghjkdfghshfkljg.
This is what I do during College Algebra on a scientific calculator:
I'm fixing my hair to go back to how it used to be. It's at a really awkward stage right now, but will be worth it in the end.And now I will end with the awkward wrist of doom

This morning I looked gothic. It was horrible. But only my face did. My clothes were how I normally dress. See for your own eyes. HORRIBLE!! Ew. Just no. Never wearing black eyeshadow again.

this week has not been good. I cried almost all day yesterday.

Today was a half day so school ended at 10:20. what a waste.
In class we each wrote down 5 things we want to change about ourselves, then threw it across the room in a ball. And read someone else's. And we made a list on the board of all the insecurities written down.
Im pretty sure mine didn't get read outloud - or someone reworded what i wrote.
The other day my friend (who's in that class with me) told me he might have cancer. But doesn't find out until thursday. I hate this.

Man Up

That's what this 7 year old girl was saying when she was dancing yesterday.
BUT she wasn't saying it to me, she was saying it to the guy that works at the studio. Guys need to be put in line sometimes, even if it's by a seven year old.
I had to do a thing about my life from birth until the future (like what we want to do) And I made my life seem happier than it is. Or maybe it really has been happy over all, and the individual bad days make it seem like I'm always depressed.

Anywhoo, I found some pictures from 2 years ago. And I look A LOT different now.

(click for bigger)

Blonde hair does NOT suit me at all. My face is all washed out and red, because we were at a water park all day and I was going to a dance.
It's so weird how someone can change over the course of two years.

excuse the face. haha
but that's how I looks now. My appearance / style has done a 180. And I like the drastic changes I've made over the years.

P.S. what color hair looks best on you?

Day of Opportunities

Today Lady Luck came knocking on my window. It's about time something good happened.
I got my haircut by an AMAZING guy. He's like.. I don't even know. Really freakin good.

The layers are mega short again. And the layers from the back are pushed to the front. Too crazy. ANYWAY! That's not the point. The point is, he wants to use me as a model for his photo shoot. So hopefully he'll follow through with it.

And I started dancing at the new studio by my house. And shooot, I am so happy that I did. The owner is pregnant and needs help (because she could injure herself and the baby if she dances too much). So she basically gave me a job teaching her classes for her. Woop woop!! It's just what I wanted. But instead of getting paid with money because she's tight on cash, I get to take as many classes as I want. Which is better than money right now.

Stuff like this rarely happens to me.
And I feel greatful that I am getting opportunities like these.

what rehearsal does to me

this is how i look after only five hours of sleep. then having to go to rehearsal for dance and being at school for 12 hours daaang i look busted - there is dark brown make up under my eyes and on my neck.
I really hope the recital goes well. because i've worked hard and the teachers are beeeeeeeeeotches.
ive gotten in BAD arguements and lost friends because of dance, gained new friends that i love, and met some pretty amazing people. I think i've really grown as a dancer, and gotten a better attitude towards some things because of dance. yeah im still a brat and get fired up, but overall i just feel so free and alive when im dancing.
ive been doing it for a little over 5 years, and i'll keep doing it until i can no longer walk. and even when i'm bedridden, i'll be bustin a move and dancing even better without moving my legs <3

if you close your eyes long enough you'll see light

Skins has engulfed my life. I'm obsessed. The past four days I've watched both seasons.
Maxxie, Effy, Anwar, Chris, Cassie - every single person is lovely, but those 5 are my favorite.
But Sketch can just fall of the face of the planet.
Look im getting all emotional about a show.
By the middle of the second episode in season one, I was convinced that Cassie was insane [she is], but some of the things she says are just so amazing - insane but has an aesthetic about it.

how completely mental but i love her all the same.
BUT she gets me so mad when she messes with everyone's minds.

i can haz no face?

That was this morning before school with my cozy new jacket and backpack on. The lighting was magnificent (but a little too bright).

Today was not good times. First hour was intense. I'm really sick of this girl who thinks she knows everything. But she needs to walk in other people's shoes to get a real understanding. Ughhhhhhhh.
In dance I hurt my neck so effing bad, so every so often I'm screaming out in pain. And tomorrow are auditions. How lucky am I.
The rest of the day was just whatever, but my friend gave me the nickname "Ugly". I told him its an oxymoron.

Did I just assist you in your willful self-destruction

I have a bajillion torn pieces of paper used as place markers in Looking for Alaska. As I'm going skimming through it again, it's making me sad. Freaking A. I feel like I'm apart of their shenanigans.
And Margo Roth Spiegleman bugged the CRAP out of me in the end of Paper Towns. She didnt live up to what I wanted her to be. But I guess that's why she's just a paper girl. :\
John Green you need to pull me back into reality (if you ever read this wich i doubt, but hey a girl can hope).

Yay for pictures sporadically throughout blog posts!!
BUT I do want to color my hair again. What can I say, I get bored easily. It needs to be darker. And excuse the arm, I was doing a nudge (like wink wink nudge nudge).

And these are the most comfortable boots/slippers ever

Too bad they'd get ruined if I wore them outside the house.

Today I managed to:
get ready in like 10 minutes after I showered
work out at the rec. center (i should get payed for that!)
Find the most amazing slipper boots
disappoint someone really bad.. sorry ?
send picture messages of stuffed animal squirrels (who knew that my friend has the same one?!)
not get anything done for a humungous project that is due Monday

^ freakin story of my life

Silly Rabbit

Trix are for kids. Oh the references..
My room has really bad lighting, because the sun is like shkjghfdkghf and my ceiling lights are terrible.
That's why I love sepia tone and black&white.

Dead corsage thing from the homecoming game (they actually won).
And I stole this picture of me from my friend (i tend to take my pictures from other people without them knowing). Love the border she set around it. Stupid pom. Blehh so happy football homegames are DONE.

Nothing new really. I was so tired in Topics of Algebra today, im pretty sure I fell asleep. What a horrible person ;)
Then this boy comes up to me and was like "Anne Marie you don't know how to do any of this huh?"
me: "Nope!"
him: "aww yeah i saw you over there sleeping like this"
(then he re-enacted how i was sleeping).

After school we went to Red Robin - their milkshakes make me so full :/ I hate it.

Now I sit by one of my friends in biology,, the teacher is probably like oh gaaaaahd. Because me and him are always making up like weird scenarios and telling stories. Good times.

Drifting

I feel like I'm not really connected to anything at the moment. I'm not really attached to any friends - I could live without them. All I want to do is dance and read. How many times have I said this? I I I I I i i Iii ii i .
I feel like I talk about myself too much. But it's my blog.. so uhh that's the point (?) ha I over-analyze things too much.

This week was a blur; a lot happened, but at the same time not much occured.So our beloved cat Tommy ran away. He was so young, only like 9 monthes old. Too stupid to find his way home. He had sucha good life, and hopefully he coms back because I miss that little rascal. Now I'm rather depressed. He would eat everything I did.

Yesterday was our last home game (thank you dear lord baby jesus). I fell on my back while mehh 4 feet in the air, my knees bled through my tights prior to this, and me and Jeremiah discussed boys together.

While I was gone, my parents got a teeny tiny kitten so our other cat Mikey won't be alone (since Tommy ran away). I guess his name is Jimmy. But I dont like that name. I call him Pudge. (because he is so little and scrawny).

I want to write a book right now - but am lacking experience.

When The Mirror Deceives You

I was on the computer for a while okey it was for like 2 hours, and when i got up i was confused. No, it was BEYOND confusion.
When I looked in the mirror I was like "WHAT THE HECK?!" I didnt know who it was - because it didnt look like me. No I didnt forget what I look like, and Im not going crazy (hopefully haha).
But my face was just very different. Not in a bad way either. And I looked really tall. *goes and measures height* I'm still 5'2. What the eff.
My nose looks better and my lips were totally different.
I think I had an epiphany about my appearance - although I thought I looked rather wide. Jesus I sound crazy.

Taken just a few minutes ago. Do I look the same? wth. ha @ my hand.

ANYWAY ENOUGH psychobabble..
Tomorrow to school Im going to wear:

floral long sleeved top, feather necklace, worn out skinnies, flower print mary janes

I'm in desperate need of sleep. But of course I have English homework to do. What is wrong with this world?